I was almost thinking Id start getting back to normal soon, for a day or two. Then I started bleeding again. An ultrasound showed that I have retained placenta. Its crazy that its been a month and I had no signs, no pain, no infection, etc. So Im going in tomorrow for a D&C. I dont want to go but we gave my body 5 days and its not letting go of very much.
A D&C is what I wanted to avoid from day 1. I nearly missed it in the ER that night I miscarried but that is ok. The Lord knows. I believe, deep down, that He always has my best in mind. and I trust Him. Its not always easy, its not always my first reaction but I trust Him.
to quote Graham Cooke - "He is consistent but He is unpredictable". A friend shared a clip from youtube and its been a blessing - helping me keep my mind focused on the Good and Kind nature of God and not my circumstances. I will post them after this.
good night blog, world & friends. Pray for me tomorrow! :)